A beautiful sunset that I experienced
in March 2003 while visiting Thief River Falls, MN.
At the beginning of
the spring semester of 2003 I was running around each day like a chicken
with her head cut off in order to be everywhere I needed to be and do everything
I needed to do. I started out looking at "Knowing Nature" as just one
more thing I had to attend to in my busy schedule. The first time I
read in the books for this class, I read rather quickly and probably did
not absorb more than a few words. When I went to class the next day
I realized what a mistake that had been, not because we had a quiz on the
material or anything, but because the discussion surrounding the readings
was so interesting that I was really wishing I had payed attention to the
stories in the book. Fortunately I owned the book so I was able to go
back and read the stories that I had missed out on. My attitude towards
the class changed after this and I realized that I seriously wanted to work
on deepening my connection with nature. I think what really drew me
in were the discussions about the wonder we have as children. My thoughts
focused a lot on why, when, and how we lose it, along with if and/or how
we can get it back. I examined my own childhood experience with nature
and came to believe that a major factor in losing this wonder and awe is
time.
A picture of my cousin Blair who still has that sense
of wonder.
While on a nature journey he found and was very excited about these
pinecones that I probably would not have even noticed.
I cannot pinpoint exactly when I lost the
natural wonder, but it seems to be around the same time I started getting
homework in school and also participating in extra-curricular activities.
The busier I got, the less important I perceived nature to be in my
life. The importance decreased until it got to a point where I rarely
thought about the world around me. So after I came up with a theory
of how I lost the wonder, it became extremely clear to me how I could get
it back, or at least work on getting it back. I would have to slow
down and pay attention to my surroundings. It took some work to get
myself to slow down because I was so used to thinking in my "I don't have
time for this" frame of mind, but I have slowed down considerably (click here for some tips on how to slow
down and sneak nature into a busy schedule). Sometimes I have to
remind myself to slow down and am always glad when I do because each time
I notice something new, which sparks new thoughts into my head. Since
I have been doing this, I have noticed that I think about completely different
things than I did before (click here
for examples of how my thoughts have changed). My initial journal
entries were brief because I had a hard time thinking of things to say about
nature, but now I have so many thoughts it is hard to sort them out and write
them down on paper.
Going along with
the idea that as we get busier we become more disconnected from nature, I
also feel that we forget about the things we enjoy doing. On my journey
back into nature I have discovered once again that I used to enjoy writing
stories and poetry. This realization came to me as I was writing this journal entry and decided I wanted to turn
it into a sort of story.
I feel
that I have grown as a person and succeeded in deepening my connection with
nature throughout the semester, but I still have a long journey ahead of
me to gain back my wondering nature. The important thing for me to do is
just remind myself to slow down and enjoy my surroundings.